[Music] hello and welcome to on living with Brooke Sproul I’m Brooke Sproul and my
lovely guest today is boa kinfire an old friend of mine a dear friend of mine and a very powerful somatic practitioner educator and healer she’s
also a musician and performance artist and a dream worker and I’m really excited to see what emerges today welcome thanks thanks Brooke for having me so
where shall We Begin what have you been pondering lately well I’m I’m currently like in a in the suburbs which isn’t a place that I feel comfortable in
um so that’s on my mind and just feeling the the control the the clear control and
the simulation of the suburbs and how the design is for safety
um that they actually make me feel less safe so that’s sort of like the first thing
that I’m you know that genuinely is sort of living on the surface of my experience
I’ve been visiting the suburbs as well and having similar experiences I
remember a month or so ago I was down there and I and a fork course this isn’t
entirely true this is an oversimplification or over generalization but the feeling I had was
I can just you know fit myself into what I think I’m supposed to be then I can
maybe put off the task permanently or temporarily of deep self-examination so
I don’t know if that’s true that might be a complete projection but that was the feeling that I had along with a feeling of
just a a lack of cultural value for individuality and individual expression
a good feeling like because since we both grew up there feeling like I have to show up a certain way to be accepted as opposed to I’m celebrated in my
uniqueness um interesting yeah it’s interesting to think about design
and how it impacts our personalities world view
um yeah because I I imagine that avoiding looking at what’s difficult
exists in other you know in other Scapes and other sort
of like City designs but there is something about um the suburbs thought it feels
it feels denuded it feels like the Wilds doesn’t really exist there on purpose
um and I you know again yeah we’re speaking in generalizations but
I also feel like there is something about individualism of like this is my property like this is mine you know so there’s maybe individuality of ownership
um but there is like this sort of falling in line with um presentation [Music]
that does feel like a pattern um and sort of formula formulaic
um it is interesting we both grew up in the context how do you why we became friends
so Outsiders Outsiders I know if it wasn’t for like Emo music and the in the
early 2000s [Laughter] it really was helpful
it’s like everything sucks and it’s painful you know it’s like I needed everything to
counterweight everything I was seeing around me where everything was fine right right yeah and I agree with what you said
about of course in every human we all in some ways aren’t looking we all in some
ways are avoiding it’s not it’s not to make a statement that that’s not present in me even right now in real time there are of course ways in which we all
don’t look but there’s something I had this feeling about and more systematic or a more
robust feeling about that like and not not like that that it’s conscious
um but just like oh there’s that that feels like the culture there and then we
set about you know the individualism versus individuality perhaps is one way
of framing it um what I’ve been thinking a lot about lately is how
like each there’s all these different movements you know socially culturally
um politically and there’s a reason that they that many movements you know even
where we might look and say oh that’s that’s not the most constructive
movement there’s a reason that they resonate with a lot of people and it’s because in my from my perspective there’s some truth and some real
deep value that that movement is speaking to people but the reason that in in my view they
might be not not be constructive is because they leave out the other side of the conversation so when I was thinking about what you’re saying about
individualism versus individuality I was thinking oh there’s this really strong
individualism and it’s not balanced with collectivism you know like it feels like
it’s it’s individual and then it’s Conformity and it’s not
like individuality and Collective integration like there’s there’s some
perversion of what I think is an optimal kind of way of structuring a culture
which is we we kind of celebrate each individual’s attributes while
um kind of collaborating collect you know as a collective and finding a place for
each person in reciprocal service yeah and it’s not to say that there aren’t other places I mean I think it I think in every culture I’m sure there’s ways
that things can be recalibrated to be more optimal like maybe there are certain cultures that are so collectivist that the individuality gets denigrated
in some ways that are hurtful of course that exists as well so there are all sorts of ways in which you know we can I think that not only we can but
we have the responsibility to be looking at where these where that balance is and
how to recalibrate and create a more optimal way of relating yeah yeah
absolutely yeah for some reason as you’re speaking I was reminded of [Music] um the cul-de-sac maybe
it’s because you live you grew up on a cul-de-sac and like the design and function of the cul-de-sac was like this filtration system
to keep you know the Riff Raff out or to see who’s in your neighborhood there’s
a book about I’m forgetting the name of the author called the wages of whiteness and and white supremacy in in Suburban designs specifically in that
the cul-de-sac sort of functions as keeping people that symbolize poverty
sort of out slows them down you kind of get a chance to see them you know get a take on them and um and then on top of that again specifically
referencing the bio original bio region in which we grow up grew up in thinking about how many neighborhoods were actually built on Marshland
and how that is actually the ecological filtration system that like helps to purify the rain water
that goes out to see and so there’s this sort of like simulation of filtration that’s based
off of ideas and ideologies and then there’s the Erasure of the
actual filtration system that supports you know aquifers and Marsh territories and and
ocean territories and I don’t know why that’s coming to mind as I was listening to you
I think I just sort of like drew me into like an ecological perspective on what’s
happening in in the where we called home I’d also love to talk about some of the
things we’ve been communicating about lately separately um because I think something I’m feeling really in touch with right now is my own
wounding so often I’m speaking to the capacity that we all have to transcend
our ordinary limitations and you know live our greatest potentialities and make an impact on the world and and Achieve kind of Awakened States Of
Consciousness and you know all of that is true and I believe it and I think that I also want to just be really mindful of speaking to
how our wounding is a part of of what opens up our Highest
Potential it’s anything any way in which we engage with our you know
limitations is ultimately kind of a part of the process that
allows us to become the greatest version of who we are and so I’m feeling kind of
in touch with my wounding right now um and my uh my limitations my struggles
and kind of you know was thinking about potentially exploring some of the
conversations we’ve been having around codependency boundaries communication
um you know would you be interested in exploring that I’ve been dealing as you
know with chronic pain and being medically disabled since I was 12 and
I’ve tried a lot of different things to try to make that pain go away and make
myself different and a part of it is natural you know to it’s natural for us to not want to feel pain
and what I’ve found recently that just feels so
deeply aligned with um what it means to be present to my
wounding is to just allow like just allow the Pain Feel in a
systematic technique as well to feel to feel all the Nuance of all
the pain to go right into it and track everything as if I’m a witness to something that’s happening
um and in that there’s this sort of resourcing that is established that
allows me to validate what’s going on um and validate that it’s my experience and then also invoke
um sort of third party in my consciousness that um is sort of an observer in the room
and it takes away my propensity to coerce in a race
um and the way that my nervous system responds to that is radical it’s radical because the nervous system feels heard
um the nervous system doesn’t feel corrected so that’s something that comes up for me in
response to the the topic of of witnessing and feeling wounding
um codependency and boundaries there’s sacred coping you know devices mechanisms that
most of us have learned are useful or were useful
and as we get older we can see how they are no longer useful
and don’t necessarily create the safety that we’re looking for which kind of
leads me into the notion of safety at all and how safety is
it’s a valuable simulation it’s important it’s not like
you know I also think it doesn’t exist ultimately but it’s important to create
so it’s almost like it’s almost like boundaries and codependency are sort of
the guides they’re the sort of harbingers into the deeper wound they kind of let us know
um they’re the protectors right and thing that I’ve been noticing is how little they actually protect me and how they
they actually sort of estranged me from my nature and from
um what it is that I long to do and how it is that I long to live and like that’s
okay like they’re here like come in you know come in to the circle and let me learn about you
and so yeah those are Notions that come up for me around all those things in
response to your invitation yeah the thread between the two from
where I was but I was feeling and and pondering was
this of this idea of being in conversation with our parts you know uh
with our nervous system with our codependency with our wounds with our boundaries like that these are all parts of us that you know and and as you beautifully
said about the nervous system um you know when my nervous system is heard it can relax and release you know
it can it can sort of self-liberate self-heal and there’s something in that
process that is feeling on a more psycho spiritual level because
um we are getting out of the dynamic of coercion and Erasure right and you know
so much of us are so much of our culture is coercive and we internalize that and
we have these war-like coercive relationships with ourselves and it’s really in the surrender to our own involuntary pain that there’s such a
great deal of spiritual and psychological Liberation and healing that occurs and so I love how you talked about kind of oh here’s here are these things
like say with codependency that in in my words would be you know defense mechanisms
protective mechanisms but it’s like yeah well welcome because I need protection like we need protection and we don’t know ways to assertively
protect ourselves well that’s fine here we are you know in this pattern that
might be backfiring and as we become more aware of that we can start to relate in more empowered ways we can gain skills but the beauty of just welcoming in and listening to our parts
is so healing and transformative and there’s a lot of research actually to back this up internal family systems therapy is a modality that’s really
about you know naming our parts getting to know them listening helping them feel heard and understood and uh you know there’s a lot of evidence that supports
its efficacy and Trauma healing as well as even physical health conditions it’s
it’s quite remarkable the reverberating effects that it has on our system to
welcome and integrate and listen to all of our parts and the the seminal book in
in ifs is called no bad parts and so the premise is you know even the things that we think are you know the worst parts of us the most damaging destructive defenses
they all serve a purpose they all have a positive and intent they may not have positive consequences so they may have you know harmful things but
they have a positive intent and when they’re listened to they can kind of relax and serve the purpose and and actualize that positive intention
it makes me think so much of the punitive justice system as opposed to restorative justice
um I’ve been fantasizing kind of going back to like design of systems like the
suburbs I’ve been thinking about prison systems and prison reform and I and I have very little education Beyond being exposed to the current political justice
system because of my family my parents occupations of choice
um what would it be like to have this sort of language and template laid over folks
who are struggling with addiction or folks who are violent
um and tracking the Nuance of their stories of their origin stories of the families and neighborhoods in which they grew up and instead of approaching things with
punishment approaching things from a regenerative restorative model that allows for their complexity
to be explored and provides resource in response to the
complexities that are discovered about that particular person’s biography and biology it just doesn’t make for example like addicts it makes no sense to me
with someone who is trying to take care of themselves and self-soothe through whatever substance they’re drawn to are sent to prison it’s like I mean I understand
that there’s Nuance I understand that like maybe they they’re being violent or they’re breaking other laws or violating people’s safety and boundaries
um in order to acquire that you know attempt to medicate themselves
but I think that um there’s just room there’s room for this ifs model
um in the justice system and I’m sure it’s a harrowing Road and
there’s a lot to do and a lot to implement in order for it to be applied and applicable but
yeah what if we started looking at things from that perspective as if
someone isn’t doing something wrong or we aren’t doing something wrong we’re just trying to
take care of ourselves yes and if we
if we perspective which is what is true you know like we individually in a way
we individually don’t commit crimes like I know for example that if I were in
certain circumstances I am confident that I would have made very different choices but to presume that I am somehow morally Superior is I think the error uh
you know that a lot of people make is you know that I I made these choices
you know as an individual sort of decontextualized and it’s really unfair because
it’s like put in the right circumstances or the wrong circumstances I think we’re all capable
of nearly anything you know I’m just going to say that I mean in response to what you’re saying there’s two things that come up for me one is
that the Empire makes money off of people being incarcerated you know and that that leads me to
wanting to throw into the pot that there’s something about the loss of
indigenosity that’s in the mix as to why we as a species are dealing with so much
depression um struggles with regulating our nervous
systems addiction violence I mean all of these sort of like less Savory
aspects of The Human Experience are they’re part of the human experience I think regardless
um and I think that the sheer magnitude of the presence of those different qualities and coping behaviors I feel like really confident and I I don’t
know if there’s any studies but just through my own observation and work on grieving the loss of my indigenosity as a white person
um I just feel how it goes back to that you know of this like
separation from place and how the a place and land in a bio region
influences my sense of belonging to community my sense of participation in community what clothing I wear you know it’s like the fibers aren’t from the land
upon which I lived or died with the plants from that territory you know there’s there’s sort of this dilution of meaning
that is connected with that that intersection of Empire and loss of indigenosity
um that we’re kind of indirectly referencing in my opinion that we talk about any of the things we’re talking about and which brings a really important
question into the foreground which I think is Paramount to moving forward as a people
is like what does it mean to restore indigenosity when we don’t live in the
place that our ancestors originated from what does it mean to
create meaning connection with the human and the non-human at the place where in
which we live yeah it’s a big one
yeah one of the most kind of helpful concepts for me as I’ve been
trying to reclaim a non-dogmatic spiritual awareness is around my
relationship to Nature and the framing of individual or person and nature as
opposed to individual or person as nature um you know like like that I’m actually
not separate from the land I’m actually I’m actually not separate from nature we’re actually counterparts and we are we are interdependent and yet not only
our thinking has taught us to be separate but our um you know are
our development our our kind of like design like our Urban Design like the way that we’ve designed things has furthered this concept and instantiated it
um in the way that we live yeah yeah totally I think that’s one reason so I feel weird in the suburbs it’s like I don’t I don’t feel that um it’s difficult to feel that
to feel nature but it makes me think about are you have you familiar with
um the author and thinker I think his name is David Abrams he wrote
um becoming animal that’s the name of this book yeah he has this really interesting
um lecture series he was doing in Amsterdam that I nerded out on several years ago that’s definitely informed my work as a dream worker specifically but
certainly also somatic work which is why I call my business movement ecology
um it sort of plays off this idea you’re talking about of the body as nature
um but he talks about how like you could go into the like 20th floor of a high-rise
building and open the fridge and find like some forgotten Tupperware left over
that’s covered in molds and how like the wild is everywhere Like There’s No Escape no matter how like we’re
all gonna die which is an example of wild nature like There Is No Escape we can try to convince ourselves otherwise with our gadgets and
our cul-de-sacs and our you know fluorescent lighting or whatever but
it’s here and and similarly like that’s something that I talk about
with DreamWork is for some of us it’s kind of our only access to like the wilderness
because dreams are feral they do not obey our code of ethics our sense of morality
um they live in the realm of taboo of violence sometimes of of Terror and
unspeakable Beauty um so yeah I totally agree with you and there’s something really
really deeply deeply important about recognizing that we are we are wild
nature and what is it what does it feel like to rewild ourselves and I think
that going back to Parts work it’s sort of like allowing all the all the inputs in the ecosystem of our being to be witnessed and present and tracked and
noticed because they’re there even if we don’t want them to be there you know it’s like
so tell me about how you how your dreams well
the lineage that I that I have been studying um with my mentor Matt Cochran for I’ve
been studying with him for over 10 years it’s actually called dream tracking
which is a term that he coined that um like in streamwork to tracking
an animal in the wilderness finding their tracks in the forest floor
and in approaching dreams that way they become sort of a dynamic territory that
we get to return to again and again and learn and understand and it becomes a relationship that grows and responds as we continue to respond to them um
yeah so that’s sort of like the premise of the work is
is acknowledging that there is no patent way of interpreting dreams I don’t I don’t
actually feel comfortable with the word interpretation I feel better with tracking we’re relating to dreams
um it really helps to sort of know a little bit more about the back story of what’s really
what’s a pers what is whatever person I’m working with what is their experience of their life
up to this point and what is most pressing in their life and in that particular moment and with those two understandings listening to their dream
and there’s different tools there’s somatic tools of like understanding
you know how someone feels in their body when they remember the dream or actually speaking about the dream in present tense so we’re actually like returning
into the territory of the dream I find to be really helpful it’s difficult it’s it’s difficult to remember to do that I I still struggle
with it um but it’s really useful way of allowing our sort of cognition to take a step aside
and not in in not um analyze a dream with our waking mind but actually be
in the dream and remember how it felt so we can we can really gather the
authenticity of what the dream is trying to offer how is DreamWork used in service
of maybe some kind of transformation or change like what’s the purpose of
DreamWork and and how do you see it relating to people’s goals or you know
um capacity to uh to change or transform in some way I find dreams to be really pragmatic
even if the language is outrageous or outlandish dreams really show us what we need to look at
what’s that Mary Oliver poem about nightmares the nightmare comes and
tells you that you need to know this it’s [Music] um
it’s an honest it’s the I feel like dreams are perhaps one of the most honest voices that we have
and that goes back to their wildness so in terms of like relating that to personal transformation
um it’s sort of a sacred catalog of what needs to be known either for us or for someone
else like we can have dreams for other people we can have trains for the land like
it’s yeah it’s difficult for me to answer that question because it feels like
it’s so much more of an organic process it’s difficult to quantify
um and like being with our Dream self
restores an aspect of our Humanity uh who knows where it will lead us I mean for me personally as you know I’ve recently decided to move to Oaxaca Mexico
and I made that decision based off of a dream that I had and I that I’ve had I had like six or seven years ago that I’ve been holding
and not trying to turn it into something right away it’s my mentor always kind of like
I’m telling me about that because one of the things that he says is how can you let the dream live that’s like a precept of this dream tracking work
um and sometimes I really like to literalize it right away the dreams dreams tell us what we need to know and then it might be something that’s going
to be useful like many years from now in terms of like what is wanting to be transformed or it could be something that needs to be turned towards the following day you
know um but it’s really how dreams participate in someone’s transformation it’s as
infinite as there are people and experiences
um which is some it’s like it reminds me of the planet you know it’s
it’s they’re so complex it’s it’s difficult to know how they will and and
yeah yeah what came up for me when you’re talking was you know this feeling
that in a way you that our dreams can be like prayers
or um or little messages from our higher self or our future self or something
that’s being born inside of us saying you know over here you know yeah
invite to look to pay attention to to see um yeah and just from a kind of
psychological lens you know what you were saying made me think that really our dreams
in some ways are about integrating our shadow and um and our unconscious uh and so much
of you know what I believe is transformative is our ability to integrate the disowned Parts the parts that we think are bad you know back to
our ifs conversation right um to integrate the parts that we don’t
see and to bring them into some kind of Consciousness so that you know not to control or coerce them but to to be in relationship to them as you say yeah and
then I I also am thinking about like shamanic journeying Altered States Of Consciousness and this this phrase keeps coming to mind you know dreams are the
language of God which I’ve heard before I don’t know who said it um but yeah there’s a there’s a way in which it connects us to this Primal uh non-verbal
um imaginal space that’s deeply spiritual yeah yeah I mean it’s it’s everything all at once
it’s time stacked on itself it’s it’s the past and the future and the present it’s
you know epigenetic memory it’s it’s practical it’s applicable
it’s actionable it’s metaphysical it’s mysterious it’s ineffable it’s everything
how your dream work relates to your work as a musician artist um yeah thank you so much for that Curiosity it’s it’s fundamental in my work I mean
so much of even the language that I choose is referencing dreams
um yeah it’s my art wouldn’t be what it is if it weren’t for
for the DreamWork so think it’s just it’s endless poetry you know it’s endless imagery
and it ties into this like deeper Taproot of what um is coming through me that I need to know
or explore or be lost in or and or for someone else to feel heard or seen or
access to whatever that Taproot is you know that really um I don’t know
functions collectively um yeah my my next album is coming out
it’s been it’s been idling for a minute which is to my chagrin and has to do with covid
um but we’re going to be releasing it in the next couple months and some EPS called ancient powers
and the the title and most of the tracks weave dreams into into the work
um it allows me to trust the work you know like when I reference my dreams
I know that I um bringing something that is hidden that’s coming through me into the world in
a way that is um relevant and
and hopefully relevant for other people yeah how has your creative life and your
music Been instrumental in your personal development or healing
oh thank you for these great questions I feel like my first album was really about grief
and particularly tending to The Unfinished grief in my maternal lineage
um yeah I think that everybody of work and whether it’s music or
performance Taps into different layers of my my healing and hopefully
creates culture of permission for other people to feel inspired to do the
feeling that needs to be felt um there’s also like a pleasure piece
um and a somatic piece of like where am I singing from in the
body like how does it how does the sound and the tone
um bring liberation um first when I was recording
I mentioned this to a friend who was interviewing me a while back um about this most recent album that we recorded of one of my design constraints
was like how is this where is the pleasure you know like does
this feel right or am I lost in the weeds of my brain trying in like production mode
um and if I can stay centered in that pleasure um that you know is really also like tied to dismantling the white
heteronormative patriarchy if I can tap into that felt sense in the music
I experience healing and I hope that that is like encoded into one of the
layers of the song um or bodies of work um
yeah I think I answered your question did I yeah that’s beautiful I what a profound connection between kind of pleasure and dismantling
oppressive systems I mean I I I find you know where my mind went first and then
I’d love to pull that thread a little bit more um sort of a new line of thinking for me but
the where my mind first went when you were speaking about your art is you know I’m also a poet um as you know and when and and part
of art for me is really just getting present to what’s already alive in my
imagination and my body and my and it’s just it’s just putting words or music or whatever your you know images to the thing that is already alive in you and
it’s just being awake enough present enough and attuned it’s for me it’s it’s
really a healing process to be able to trust myself enough to bring what is
inside of me into the three-dimensional World in a way yeah in itself is
a healing process totally and I’ve been thinking a lot about how kind of
self-trust and self-love are really related in a way that I’ve been quite
connected before because it’s really hard like for so long I felt so wounded because of
my mental illness um I felt so wounded in my ability to trust
my own mind and my own intuitive knowing even though it was very much intact I
didn’t know which voice to listen to at times or I felt so I felt so compromised in my
ability to trust my own perception um and and so much of my ability to
reclaim love and and compassion for myself has been related to my ability to
reclaim a sense of of my own inner knowing and uh feeling that my intuition that I can rely
on my intuition in a way that allows me to navigate the world and there’s something healing in that that I’m not sure I can fully articulate but
I I feel like self-love and self-trust come together I’m not exactly sure why
um it feels true to me and the Poetry is sort of like the invocation of the words
coming through you is an exercise in in the soft trust and the way that
that threads into the self-love and the restoration of instinct
yeah I love that that feels I feel something really similar in the act of
creation and and there’s also like this Faith piece you know of like just showing up and
being like all right I’m here like I don’t know what is going to come through I feel like a lot of doubt that anything is going to come through and then it does
and there’s something really yeah it’s interesting to think about healing does dismantle systems that you know Thrive off of our self-doubt
yeah because the systems can exist if if we as individuals trust ourselves our attuned our com you know to what is right and true in terms of like human
dignity Justice fairness yeah like when when people are fully intact awake
connected to our inner knowing about what is right and wrong like we can’t
be controlled and subjugated like we will not allow that and that’s really you
know so much of why I I am feeling so energized and inspired to live in a time
where we have the technology to spread awareness about how the relationship
between personal and Collective transformation like we as individuals when we wake up
we can together help others wake up and then together we can dismantle this
whole system that is oppressing all of us even even the people who are in power even
the people of privilege like we are all hurt by it whether we know it or not whether we’re fighting tooth and nail to preserve the systems that we think are
in our best interest they are they are destroying us right yeah absolutely and
I just I feel so privileged and inspired to live in a time where we have the
resources and Technology to really make a meaningful impact on
global issues and I think what feels so like eye-opening for me of late is just
this awareness that it does start with our individual Freedom our individual emancipation uh and uh and a reclaiming of our own intuition pleasure self-trust
um self-love and then as we awaken to that we say oh my God you know it’s like
it’s it’s a parallel process right between our own kind of
self-healing and our advocacy I think of others and for systemic change because
it’s like because because it’s just like I’m not you know the healing isn’t oh I’m so
great and this is why I deserve love it’s oh I’m a human being and every human deserves love and so if if I’m going to step into my own ability to love and
advocate for myself that’s not separate from you know love and advocacy for others
and so there’s just this really interesting way because I have such a a history and the more individual small micro what’s called in social work the
micro perspective that it’s been really powerful to see how uh we can think
about scaling that because what where my heart really lies is like let’s let’s end
Global poverty like let’s let’s like let’s not let’s not do this anymore like we can change
the global Consciousness and all it takes is just each of us doing our own inner work and then helping others to self-liberate and and
pass it on yeah I think that’s where the New Age movement I mean one of the ways
you know that the New Age movement is like deeply flawed is that it centers exclusively the self
when you know no one’s free till everyone’s free and you know like we are
interconnected and Sophie strand one of my uh favorite contemporary thinkers
talks about how the myth of the hero’s journey is it needs to end and we in what needs to
emerge is a mycological Consciousness which is like the you know the
networking the power of the network is um it’s the way forward and so it is
like this Ellipsis where it’s like finding that Harmony between
you know restoring the uh degradated Ecology of the self
that is degraded from the Empire from imperialism currently you know what that looks like is the white heteronormative patriarchy
and mono in my opinion the monotheistic influence it’s like in the mix certainly
um and then also exploring like what does your heart feel called to outside of yourself where you see the degradation get degradation and the
um the the destruction of the other’s dignity whether it’s you know poverty
um whether it’s like super fun sites um you know the list goes on and on with
the human and the non-human and we each have our particular genius that we can lend to what we feel called to help in the Regeneration and restoration of and
they can’t they have to coexist in parallel individual and societal change
are inextricably interwoven there are counterparts you know again we have this
way of parsing and separating dichotomizing but really like as
individuals we are incomplete if we do not you know if we if we are not in some
way in service of the collective um if we like our destiny is
in some ways to self-liberate so that we can you know offer that gift to others not
just as you say with the New Age movement you know this there’s something so incomplete and and um I almost want to say masturbatory
about that approach to self-development like it’s all about me just living my best life like that’s like I’m the like that’s an incomplete life that’s not
about your best life is not lived simply for you part of you living your best life is you figuring out your unique gift and how you can offer it in service
so you know there’s just yeah I totally agree I have a lot of problems with the
New Age movement that’s not not the least no that’s just one I love the Deep
design for us well that’s that’s kind of I think another reason why I’m feeling
you know excited to create content because there’s such a spiritual hunger right now
there’s a hunger for meaning and purpose and and spiritual consciousness but there’s not a language around spirituality that isn’t new Ag
and that isn’t dogmatic or religious and so I’ve been really kind of you know
that has been a very healing and empowering part of my journey is was
starting to listen to thinkers who were having conversations around spirituality where I didn’t have any alarm Bells where I didn’t like feel that protective
like oh this doesn’t feel right to me like it’s either coldsey or it’s narcissistic or it’s new agey or it’s dog with you or whatever it was like
like any time I was interfacing with people around spiritual actuality one of those things would come up in such a way that I didn’t feel safe engaging deeply
and it’s like spirituality is such a deep steep process that like it requires
a lot of safety and tenderness and so um you know really wanting to normalize spirituality and kind of offer a framework for how we access you know our
Birthright which is our connection to Nature to our Oneness um and and we we are most alive when in a way we are at least um self-focused right
[Music] there is some coming together that needs to happen between some sweet spot
between how we identify as individual beings and function in the greater whole and um
the systems that are really thriving right now don’t want that and they want us existing in a binary they want us existing in either or they want
us to exist in results instead of the Meandering process which is the
truth of what it means to be and the Mystery of this Dimension and planet
um yeah it’s an interesting time and like with climate change and like all of the
just like documentation of outrageous oppression that is happening it’s really
how do we how do we facilitate change like very real change
and acknowledge that like we’re a part of a process we’re part of a lineage that like it’s not
gonna all happen in our lifetime there’s just like way too much work to do so what does it mean for us to do our
part and keep it’s almost like seed saving you know it’s like what is our refinement
that we have to offer to give to the ones coming in after us
you know and my belief is that if we can take you know when we take as much
ownership and responsibility for our own internalized oppression pain suffering
shadow um that as we transmute that and heal that that organically and naturally we begin to
wake up to how we we can uniquely serve the collective so I think that yeah you
know that it’s so important because I’ve struggled with for such a long time that’s like how do I help the world how do I help the world and you know I think it’s
like well you you you really have to do a significant amount and not always I mean of course you’re always helping the world at every stage in your
journey but I think there’s I guess I just want to give people permission to be where they’re at in
their process that like if right in this moment you are focusing on your own healing trust that in the long run that will be in service right right
that’s a really important distinction yeah and like people like we all are in various ways just going through a hell of a time it’s so hard
and it’s so it’s so overwhelming all of the inputs that are coming at us that need
tending and I totally appreciate you speaking to that that’s um because the exceptionalism is another way that we oppress ourselves you know so
yeah thank you for speaking to that that feels really important
it’s really a compassion piece yeah and a surrender piece it’s like
you know for me I I’m constantly kind of struggling between the aspirational and the actual and you know that
when I’m in right relationship to my aspirations they fuel me but when I’m in
um wrong relationship they they just create shame and actually [Music] drive me away from you know my ability to birth what is what is true for me
yeah and that it’s okay to be where you’re at and thank you so much any final words you’d like to share thank you and I just want to send
love to everyone tuning in thank you so much for for being here and
sharing your your gifts and your perspective thank you it’s fun to chat